Tears of Blood

Current Mood:  Disbelief

I  loved a man who devoured my soul.


I want to be strong, but I feel like a fool.

I feel so weak, and all I do is moan.

My thoughts jumbled…my words mumbled.

He’s taken my life, turned me into a drone.

He made promises he wouldn't keep.

So I stand on the hilltop wanting to leap.

My heart breaks and bleeds.

He wouldn't even try to fill my needs.

I'd given all I could and wished I could stop loving

This cruel cold man.

He took my soul and gave me nothing but pain.

Why did I stay when I had nothing to gain?

My eyes fill with tears, and I cry from inside.

My heart begins to bleed and I think it has died.

I want to run and hide where my eyes can’t see.

I don’t want myself to see this pathetic me.

But in hiding I’ll be alone with my hurt.

My heart is smashed, ground into the dirt.

I feel I'm dissolving, melting away.

My mind said to leave, my fear wanted to stay.

I’m weak and afraid and I want to retreat

How can a heart feel, when it cannot beat?
 
 
Originally written January 2009